Welcome to my lifee..

they made fun of us. they jeered us. they insulted us. they shoved our mistakes down our throats. everyone went right, but i was left. left out, left to doubt.

from where i came from, we were the underdogs. from where i came from, no one believed. from where i came from, i felt as if going against an elitism i could not understand.


but today, i guess we proved that underdogs CAN come out on top :)

slow death is....having a whole week to study.







miss you friends!:P

for 2007...

i love this song. brought tears to my eyes. sniff.
the words..exactly how i feel. and the melody..well, is just something to live for:)

WELCOME TO WHEREVER YOU ARE *bon jovi

Maybe we're all different but we're still the same
We all got the blood of Eden running through our veins
I know sometimes it's hard for you to see
You're caught between just who you are and who you want to be

If you feel alone and lost and need a friend
Remember every new beginning is some beginning's end

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life; you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
That right here, right now
You're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome to wherever you are

When everybody's in and you're left out
And you feel you're drowning in the shadow of a doubt
Everyone's a miracle in their own way
Just listen to yourself, not what other people say

When it's seems you're lost, alone and feeling down
Remember everybody's different; just take a look around

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life; you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
Right here, right now
You're exactly where you're supposed to be

Be who you want to be
Be who you are
Everyone's a hero
Everyone's a star

When you want to give up and your heart's about to break
Remember that you're perfect; God makes no mistakes

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life; you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
Right here, right now
You're exactly where you're supposed to be
And I say welcome…
I say welcome…
Welcome…

oh my god, this hurts like hell
i had that dream again where
i was lost for good in outerspace
tell me, doctor, how to shake
a waking nightmare that is only
worse when i am sleeping

pffft..kids these days.><

i realy didnt want to end up becoming some nagging preacher. i really didnt. bt sometimes, it just scares me how much i CANT SEEM TO HELP IT.

i got freaked over the dinner table when i found out jareds got some girlfriend. seriously. i know its like a yeahhh watever kind of "girlfriend" bt hell, SERIOUSLY. someone just HAD to knock some sense into this stupid lost senseless naive kid.

he met her over ym (totally lame) saw her friendster pic (pathetic i tell u) and got asked BY the girl if he cud be her boyfriend. COME ON. and this stupid kid goes..watever and now "on" na cla. wahahahahha :)) i find the whole thing quite funny, stupid and ridiculous. bt what scared me is how jared is ignorantly giong with it. i mean, this kid dsnt know what hes talking about..what hes getting himself into. and its just his frame of mind that im worried about. parng..di nag iisip. sunod lng ng sunod. and he thinks he's cool T.T i cudnt take it so i went on and on lecturing about responsibility, the proper use of friendster n ym, puberty, adolescence, girls..etc. i cud feel my vein popping.

my parents were there just..smiling. i was like..m i the only one panicing this kids growing up this way??? bt i knew deep inside, they agreed with me. we're really worried about that kid. he has no sense of right n wrong, wats proper n not, no street smartness, prone to peer pressure, etc. lam m yun?

ive always thot id be a FUN cool typof atchi. yknw, someone u cud tell everything to and stuf..bt hell, i dnt thnk jareds ever gna tell me nething now.xp i think i scared him off:( that felt bad...and thinking he may never open up to me hurt. bt it was something i had to do. i felt old. my dad blames it on generation gap. heloo? 7 years?

bt thats love i guess. i realize that someones gotta tell them things they dont wna hear and hold them back from certain things they wna do at a certain point. much as id want to be that 'cool' sibling, i cant idly stand aside as i see my brother do something stupid or make a fool of himself. yes its gna hurt..bt i guess thats what it takes..not to become a 'fun' sibing, but to be a REAL one to them.